It has come down to this…. we gotta do, what we gotta do.
Our economic situation doesn’t seem to be improving at all. On Monday, my husband will start his contract break, but with that he got unwanted days off. We have been searching for a resolution for a while and what we said we needed in order to put our plans into work, has come true.
And now we are like, okay… what do we do now?
It’s funny how we ask God to put things into place and when he does, it’s like, well??? um???
I hate that of me. I prayed so much for this “thing” to happen, and now that it’s there we are unsure whether or not to take it. How dumb, huh? lol…
I mean, why did I pray for it then? Why did I ask people to pray for it?
It says in the bible to ask and you shall receive. I asked and received and now do I dare ask God to never mind? Can my excuse for us not doing what we gotta do, be more of a well not now, maybe later, kinda thing?
I am so confused. Why??? It’s just the first initial step of tearing off the band aid with one tug. Jumping off the tall diving board for the first time. I feel all these emotions and I don’t know what to do with them. I feel excitement, fear,peace, restlessness. At the same time the ands, ifs and buts are racing around in my mind and it’s driving me crazy.
I want to hear from God, that we’ll be okay. That no matter what this is according to his will. That we are going to make it. I have heard the voice of God clearly, once before, and I want it again. I need it again. We need your prayers. Please to all who read this, pray for us….